Another month of 2016 has come and gone, and it’s time to share a little recap of what I’ve been up to and the things I’ve learned along the way.
I’ve been a low key motorcycle lover for as long as I can remember. I was always lusting after Harleys, and really wanted to learn to ride. When I talked about it, it was in “someday” terms. And at that time, no one I told had really taken me seriously (though that never matters, does it?). I didn’t pursue it when I was younger primarily because of the unsafe driving conditions where I live (Lebanon rivals Rome in the chaotic driving department).
Somehow, a decade has passed, and I’m finally taking lessons. I signed up with Infinite Rides, a relatively new school that offers safe and affordable lessons in Lebanon. Granted, learning to ride wasn’t my priority for the past few years. But I’m really glad I have the time and mental space for it now. I have tendency to overthink things and psych myself out. So for me, this was also just a personal challenge to get out there and experience the unpredictable yet often-anticlimactic reality of pursuing things.
We do not rise to the level of our expectations. We fall to the level of our training. – Archilochus, Greek Soldier, 650 BC
I have had a total of five lessons so far. Besides learning technical driving skills, I’ve also been learning about self-trust and patience in a completely different context than what I’m used to. All in all, I’ve been enjoying it, but I have also experienced frustration along the way. It’s been tough for me to get through some of the basics as I’m very small and not the most physically adept. But I keep telling myself that “slow progress is better than no progress,” and everything takes a lot of practice. Besides learning to control my speed and balance on the bike, I’m celebrating every victory, staying focused, and measuring my progress only against myself. I’m not too concerned about when I’ll feel comfortable enough to go riding around on a shiny red Vespa in Rome. I know I’ll get there, so I’m just enjoying the process. And that’s a feeling I can get used to.
Cultivating ways to feel at peace amidst the general uncertainty of life has been a top priority for me since last year. Having a generally low stress and anxiety threshold, I’ve been learning to find a balance in life that works for me. My weekly yoga class, morning meditations, and The Five Minute Journal app to cultivate gratitude and intention are three habits that have really made a difference in my life. I’m no longer as swayed by external and uncontrollable circumstances as much as I used to be – which is really the goal.
I’ve been putting so much focus on myself in the process of finding “centered calm and balance.” Which is great. But I’ve also realized it’s time to make space in my life for positive people. I’ve always welcomed them, of course, but I am intentionally making more room. Two things that I’ve had to work with are: 1. I’m highly introverted and 2. I’ve had a tendency to welcome negative energy. Being a very sensitive person, it’s hard to set boundaries. I feel like I very easily absorb other people’s moods and problems. But not every action needs to be met with a reaction. I’m learning to let go of negativity that’s sent my way by not internalizing it. I’m also focusing on myself and meeting my own needs before those of others – because the only way you can help the world is by helping yourself first.
Y’all. I’m on Snapchat – finally. Being a bit of a social media phobe (I know, such a “no-no” for bloggers), I finally bit the bullet and signed up. Part of me wishes I hadn’t waited so long. I can only imagine the many interesting tidbits of people’s lives I missed out on (Kate Hudson’s mini impressions just crack me up), but those days are over. Snapchat is a great way to keep up with my favorite bloggers and friends and see their more fun side. And I’m loving the puppy filter. You can follow me @demoiselleperdu for snaps from my daily life.
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So thanks April, for the whole “facing fears, learning from life challenges, and living the spiritual gangsterdom” thing. I hope you’ve all had a great month, and that May is even better. Until next time!